Monday, March 23, 2009

seventyfive

Borneo tickets:

London Heathrow (LHR) to Kota Kinabalu (BKI), Malaysia,
Kota Kinabalu (BKI) to London Heathrow (LHR),United Kingdom,
Economy class return with Royal Brunei Airlines
Friday 10 July 2009 - Monday 10 August 2009

Total to pay: 759,20 GBP (=around 813 Euro)



Gah! Oh my, so much cheaper!




I have to get an irish VISA card!

Thursday, March 19, 2009

seventyfour

Spring is officially here!
The weather was amasing for Paddys Day, and the day after too - for which I wasn't up to much due to all the wine I dutyfully consumed on Paddys day but went to a nice italian restaurant with Alex and had a smoothie in the park.

Took some photos the other day. Spring is really here and it makes me so happy!







You can just smell it in the air - everything feels so much easier.

and soon I'm going home to Sweden for 5 days! :D

Monday, March 16, 2009

seventythree

A long time ago I said I was going to put a photo up of the painting I made before Christmas... I gave it to Alex as a Christmas present and painted it with that in mind. And now finally I came around to doing it.




What do you think?

I know the photo is a bit crooked but I was in a hurry when I took it and it was standing on his bed so wasn't the best circumstanses...
I don't know what to call it though... any suggestions?

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

seventytwo

My banshee


In the darkest hour
she comes
It's the banshee and
she is after me
Her icy hands clasp around my throat
They stick there
like magnet to steel

But dawn is breaking
and she wont stay long
The first beam of light
will send her home
and all that is left is the smell
of sour grapes

...and hope



/Hannah

Tuesday, March 3, 2009

seventyone

I am completely in to the Twilight books... I haven't slept enough for several days because I can't stop reading at night even though my eyes are dropping. At the moment I am reading the third book. I have to get the fourth one tomorrow because I have a feeling I will have finished this one by then. I haven't been this in to a book since I read the last Harry Potter book.

But now I've come to that point were I just want to keep reading (it's like heroine) but still try to keep myself from it... dreading the moment when the books will be finished and I will have to step back in to reality. I just want to stay in the book. In the other world were I don't have to make any decisions or take any responsibility. No worries and no other thoughts. Like meditation in a way.

I love the books that draw me in like that. I want to write a book like that. I want to feel like that while writing... but I am scared that it wont be good enough and if it's not good enough for me, it isn't good enough to show anyone.



My phone is broken by the way. The prettiest phone ever... but not working.

Look how pretty:


I sent it off to get fixed and I borrowed sweet Elins phone for now, totally saved me
from isolation there. :)

Hopefully I'll get it back soon enough.

Friday, February 20, 2009

seventy

Master suppression techniques (or the Swedish word: härskartekniker) is something that is much discussed in Sweden but I have never heard of it here.

Two of the most common ones are the following two which are often used combined:

Ridicule

That through a manipulative way to produce someone's argument or person as silly and unimportant. This is implemented for example by using striking but irrelevant parables - even commenting on what a person looks like in an unproffessional manner is one way.
Example: A colleague laughs at your pronunciation and says you sound like a person in a fun TV series (when you had something important to say).

Affixing of guilt and shame

To make someone ashamed of their properties, or to imply that something they are exposed to is their own fault. This is often done through a combination of ridicule. Example: Even though you were not informed about that informal meeting, you hear that you should have figured out when it was. Nobody listens to what you say at the meeting and you feel that you expressed yourself in a stupid or unclear way. A woman / man who is sexually harrassed has themself to blame, for example becasue of the way she or he dresses.


Most people who use suppression techniques are not aware of it and it can be done in such a subtle and manipulative way that it is hard to respond.

I have a problem with this right now and I don't know what to do. I know about these techniques but I never learnt how to handle them in any other situation than a debate. In a debate you simply counteract by either using the same technique yourself (which is ugly and mean but it might be necessary) or by being very harsh about the fact that the person is using it and it is unproffessional.

But how do you handle a situation where the person/people in question is someone you have a personal relationship with and you don't think that the person is intending to make you feel bad but simply isn't aware of how they are hurting you?

Without attacking or ending up in an argument that doesn't lead anywhere... please let me know if you have any thoughts on this matter.

Tired.

Thursday, February 19, 2009

sixtynine

When I feel particularly homesick I go in to this website where I can watch the webcam over my hometown.
It is funny becasue it is a bit like spying on people - I don't think that most people know that it's there at all. Here's a clip:



The picture changes once every minute and apparently there's snow at the moment... :) Nice.

Other news: I have been looking into where to go this summer. My original plan was very blurry. I was thinking about Palestine but feel now that I would prefer something else.

My next thought was India but I realised that at the time I would go it would be mad hot there - around 40 degrees Celsius! No thanks.
So my next thought was Indonesia but with the current warnings about going there and reading about it, for some reason it just didn't feel right.
Right now I'm leaning towards Malaysia - Borneo. It seems amazing in many ways - and very safe (and cheap of course) so my mom wouldn't have to worry. I really would prefer to go with a friend though. Anyone who wants to go with me?
If I do go on my own I would probably meet loads of people and it would be great for my selfesteem and I think it is something I would be very proud of. I just don't know if I am brave enough.
It's hard for me when everything isn't planned out but I don't want to go with a hord of other people (touristy americans in particular) and being scuffed around like cattle on it's way to being fed... I want to do it budget and for real. I know it will be scary but once I've done it I will be so happy about it.



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